Over the last few weeks a lot has taken place and a lot of changes have happened in our family……I am Feeling the Pressure from people close to me to change our way of living.
Yesterday was “Are You OK” day here in Australia. And really this post should have been written then.
And I am trying to let it go…..
I am trying not to think along their way of lifestyle…..
I am trying not to think about “Living The Normal Way” – mind you what is the normal way of living anymore?
I am trying to hold it together within so that my boys don’t see me losing it.
I am trying not to be hurt by the words that those closest to me are shouting at me.
And I am no longer wanting to be online at the moment…..actually that thought has been creeping up on me strongly for a few weeks!
I used to love blogging, I used to love reading other bloggers and connecting with them but again I am Feeling the Pressure to check emails, twitter, facebook, look at our stats, reply to comments and find ways to grow our blog!!
And then I am feel the Pressure from all of the family to hand over the computer because they want/need it.
ITS ALL TOO MUCH.
As well as homeschool, explore new areas and see more of Sydney. Flying solo with two of our boys most of the time.
So I am going back to Basics for the time being – I will blog when/if I feel like it.
No longer will I bend to society rules…..and no longer will I let those closest to me treat me like I am doing a bad job by raising my boys with our way of living.
For those who want to live their life their way, without me saying anything, you need to let me do the same.
For those that think they can scream at me when I express my feelings, then be prepared for me to turn within and ignore you.
I am stronger than I ever used to be, and I am growing stronger within- what’s that saying??
“What doesn’t Kill Me Makes Me Stronger”
Well its time to let the Pressure go – let me be true to myself. Sure is something that I am now going to concentrate on with my boys ~ From now on I am going to be more conscious to let them grow at their own rate and to let there true inner self shine instead of expecting them to confirm to what society expects from them.
I guess you could say that I am grateful that “New Life on the Road” has given me this experience ~ I am finding myself after losing myself for so many years….parenting five boys does that to a person!
And I am enjoying my time reflecting on how much has changed.
For me the experience of travelling my way is also playing a big role in how I want to be a Better Person/Better Mum. I am connecting with other Homeschoolers and I am grateful for their inspiration. I hear what they are doing with their families and I admire their courage. I like listening to their parenting styles ~ they all do what’s right for their families. They are Strong Women who believe in themselves.
I am also not going to chase other people’s ideas….they can chase their own way of wanting to make money. Chasing money never works anyway, chasing passion does. If you are passionate about what you are doing then the money will come anyway. If you forget about what’s true to yourself then you will never be rich.
Getting Into Shape ::
For me this is really Important. I was really fit when I was Pre-Children. I was really fit when we only had three boys. I am going to be really fit now that I am refocused on getting back my body.
Staying True ::
To myself with my goals/passion/dreams and not taking on anyone’s other ideas is the goal for this year. Funny I have never ever be into “New Year’s Resolutions” but I am setting one in September!
Not Listening ::
Yep. Sorry but I am not going to listen to anyone who can not treat my feelings as being important. Scream as much as you want about your ideas. I will listen when you are respectful.
Scream as loud as you like. Watch my back walk away…..from now on my feelings are important to.
Letting The Pressure Go ::
Being kinder, being more understanding, listening within, and letting go. Something I want my boys to see so that they learn they have important feelings and that they can express their own feelings without having to be pressured to confirm.Without being scared to talk.
Sharing Here ::
When/If I feel like it. There wont be regular postings for the time being. I will share when I can.
Be YourSelf ::
If there is something that I can give you all its this…..Be Yourself. Be True To Yourself. Follow Your Dreams ~ and stay strong.
Are You OK?
Thanking you for following our Journey.
New Life on the Road.