I am sitting here with Mixed Emotions. After hearing about Hayden’s fitness test, and then him passing the test, and then his offer into the navy with a start date of 17th October (less than a week away) I have many different emotions that I am dealing with, and emotions from all of our family!
Mixed Emotions From Everyone
My head says one thing, and yet my mind says another thing! I know that this is Hayden’s dream, and I support him no matter what – but I also know that he still is my baby! Then there is his brothers to think about….plus his Grandparents to think about, and then there is Dads feelings to think about! A lot of mixed Emotions from everyone. I am still not sure how I will go on Monday when I get to see him for the last time….I think that I will have to say Goodbye with my sunnies on!!
Do You Have Mixed Emotions In Your Family?
The idea of the Navy is not what the issue we have….we reckon the Navy will help Hayden to become a fine man. Its more of the fact that we are living a life that is different, so I guess you could say that I don’t agree with the set up of the navy, yet I support what Hayden wants from life. Even our second boy wants to enter the navy, and when its his time we will again support him in his quest! When you have kids – and you have dreams for them – one of them is to be happy. Another dream is to see them grow up and watch them explore the real world, with their ideal career. I know in my head that he will be fine in the navy, yet in my heart I want to know that he will be safe, that he will handle the training, that he will be happy, that he will return as the same loving caring man that he has become and also return home as the man he is about to become.
The Navy Better Take Care Of Him
One of my emotions that I am dealing with, is that the Navy better take care of him – they better look after him, and they better make sure he stays safe. You hear so many stories in the press about what happens in the navy (or any defence force), and how the members are treated when no one is looking – all I can say is that they better make sure Hayden returns home safe, happy and in one piece!
Dealing With Brothers Emotions
Our boys are going through mixed emotions…funny but when they were around each other every day, they couldn’t be in the same room without fighting! Kinda like that saying “Cant Live With Them, Cant Live Without Them” 😉
They know that Hayden is going into the Navy, and they know that they have less than a week with him. Yet they don’t know how to express their thoughts, or what to say!
I am not even sure what to say…..
How can I say anything that makes it all right?
This is all new to our family, and its a journey that is going to begin. A new journey of Hayden becoming a man, and the navy helping him to become one. Looking forward to this week, and spending as much time with Hayden as possible 🙂
Have you ever had to deal with Mixed Emotions?