Since we began this journey so much has changed. For myself and I like to think for our family as well. Reflecting on my inner self to see the reflection of my life is like looking within for answers! As well as discovering who I am.
Looking Within
What has changed the most for me is my inner thoughts and the way I now think about life/lifestyle.
I am even starting to think about how I am now wanting to raise our sons – totally different to over 10 years ago!
What we used to do for our older son is no longer the type of life we want for our younger boys.
Did we raise our son in the “Wrong Way” – Can’t say for sure – but I do know that our older son is very happy in the navy and doing extremely well for himself.
But I do know tha I can no longer “Be” that person that I used to be. I have change who my inner self is all about and how I think about life.
I need to Let It Be~
Feeling at peace within.
I feel like I am a different person all together. I don’t look any differently. But I think and see things differently.
NO longer will I let the smaller things or stuff that our boys do upset me like it used to do.
Life is far too short to sweat the smaller stuff.
I am trying so hard to let my boys grow and explore the way they want to.
Trying to work out what type of parenting is best for our boys ~
Letting them be the best they can!
I am not at the stage where I feel like I am free parenting (nothing wrong with that style – and I am still exploring that type of parenting) but I am sure no longer as strict as I used to be!
I like to think that I am happy to be in between – happy to just be me.
I feel at peace within, happy to be free to explore and discover new things in life.
Feeling Within
I want that feeling to last, and I don’t want to take on other people’s feelings. If my boys are upset or angry with something in their life then I want to be able to forget about it, and feel happy with my thoughts.
I now accept that I have no control over how my boys are. But I do have control on how I respond.
Kyle running up and down with his towel ~
He was trying to lay it down but the wind kept picking it up!
I think that going through two boys teenage years (gosh are those hormones crazy to deal with) and surviving those years that I am stronger and more prepared for our three other boys growing spurts.
I used to worry about doing the right thing and concerned with everyone’s feelings/thoughts. I am slowly learning to let that go.
I need to be at peace within so that my outer life reflects that. Sometimes I forget and slip back into my old ways. Those are the days that I need to be looking within to see what feels right for me.
Some days I like to hide my head in a good book and ignore my family. Ignore the world. That is the way that I cope with the world. Take stock of what I believe in, be grateful for all that I have and all that is coming my way!
Making my days worth while because I need that more than anything else. I need to feel happy, and I want to smile at the silly things my boys say – gee are they funny with what they come out with!
Looking Within is helping to shape the lifestyle of our dreams.
Have you looked within to see your life?
Cheers
Lisa
Lisa, you are wonderful at changing your life and growing into the person you want to be. You are amazing.
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Hi Jan,
I wouldnt say that I was amazing – More that I am a mum trying to find a better way of living! I just know that deep within I didn’t like the parent I used to be, and now I am searching for a better way to be!
Thanking you so much for your amazing kind words and your support.
Cheers
Lisa
Definitely did a lot of looking in when I did the Landmark Forum and then after when coaching. It totally changed my life and how I parented. Many things I hadn’t seen which became so clear and gave not only me freedom but also the kids and Sam. wishing you love in your journey, lisa x
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Hi Lisa,
Its so good to hear about another parents journey with looking at how life can be different. So good to know that there are other families that are searchng for a different way of life 🙂
Landmark Forum sounds very interestng. I would love to do Online Coaching – have to get my skype all sorted!!
Cheers
Lisa