I know that the year started yesterday – well on New Years Eve but yet it feels like the start of 2012 was today. Not sure why that is but I think it’s because today we went to the beach and I got to walk for ages while the boys all played.
The Start of 2012 Feels Real Today
Yesterday I had too much things to do online so David took the boys to the beach in the morning and then I took them down to the pool in the afternoon.
Today our boys got to play with other children and make sandcastles at the Beach!
Sharing Stories Yesterday Reveals….
It really is a small world. While I was watching our younger two boys having fun, I got to talking to a few of the guys that were swimming. One guy stated that it had to be over 40 Degrees for him to get into the water as he was from up North.
I stated I could understand that as we once lived in Mackay – about 12 1/2 years ago!
Then I just thought I would ask – did he work in the mines up North?
Yep.
Then I started to talk about how David use to fly in and fly out of Mackay to the mines.
Before Mackay we lived in a mining Town called “Moranbah” where David worked on “shut-downs” in the mines with a contracting company! This guy also worked in the town Moranbah!
Within five minutes of talking back and forwards it was soon revealed that this guy knew David and had even worked in the same mining company – fly in fly out from Mackay to Cloncurry! OH my gosh what a small world it is 🙂
Yesterday they got to meet up and have the afternoon sharing stories about who they knew, what they were getting up to and what they were doing. David’s mate stayed working in the mining industry while David had moved onto Boat Building. It was a great afternoon.
Today We Headed To The Beach
This morning we headed out to the beach.
All of our boys had seen this hill yesterday – so today they wanted to try it out.
They took thin boards to use but it was not working unless you used surf boards!
It was so very nice as I got to do what I love the most – and that is walking along the beach front! While David and the boys played together building sand castles and playing in the water.
I have forgotten how much I love walking along the beach while I am alone…its almost like I have met my best friend again.
Our boys were so happy – another boy let them use his surf board!
The Start of 2012 Feels Real Today
It’s also something that I needed to do today.
What better way then to start of 2012 with walking/thinking.
You see my mindset is not in a good place at the moment.
I am not sure why or what is going on? But I am feeling something.
I can’t put my finger on what I am feeling – or why I am feeling this way?
The last time I ever felt like this was when I was so very tired from raising our two babies….one was 18 months and our new-born! I have been feeling like that again and I don’t like it.
We even got to see another person landing on the Beach ~
The same company that Zachery used to parachute!
The way I deal with myself when I get into one of these “Moods” is to retreat within. I go for long walks, and I like to keep very quiet. I am not even able to discuss it with anyone in my family……its a matter of time.
Time is good.
Time is all I have right now.
Time is all I am giving to work out what is going on within.
If I am not online for the time being its because I need to be quiet. I need to think without having to talk.
I have these feelings now and then, but this one is lasting a little bit longer.
Its almost like I start to question everything that is going on within our family…within our blog.
I also start to wonder “What The Hell Am I Doing….”
It’s not something that I have any control over – it just happens 🙂
This year is going to be about what is best for my family.
The Start of 2012 Feels Real Today and it feels like I am where I am meant to be!
What Do You Do When You Need To Think?
Cheers
Lisa
Hi Lisa
I so know how you are feeling at the moment as I am feeling it too!! I so hope you get over what is going on soon and back to your normal self and back to writing fantastic blog posts, I really love reading about your family and your ventures and dreams. I was going to pick your brains about a few things as I am considering starting my own blog but I will leave it until your head is clear and back on line. I would love to be brave enough to embark on an adventure and way of life like you! I once told the kids that I was going to buy a bus and take them out of school and travel around Australia (they tell me I threatened them with it lol) I had just divorced their father and moved to a nearby town and told them that we would give it (the new town) 12 month if we (as a family) didn’t like it, that is what we would do (the bus & travel). Well it is now 6 years later and we have all fallen in love with the small country town of Deniliquin and my dream of the bus & travel has been put on the back burner for the time being. Take care and keep your chin up and BELIEVE in yourself and your dreams.
xx Allie
Hi Lisa
Yes it is a very small world when you step out of your local suroundings and what a perfect time to reflect than at the start of the year. Nothing quite like a bit of quiet to work things out.
Thinking of you on the road and I look forward to hearing how you plan for your year to go.
The beach is a great place to think, but unfortunately we don’t have any long stretches around where I live. Usually anywhere quiet will do, but I have to be standing or moving. If I’m sitting down, I’m falling asleep.
Hope everything comes clear to you soon!
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Hmmm. It is a toughie. I feel introspective a fair bit lately since I gave up my job of 15 years. I felt it was time to move on, but I still feel guilty, because I am not contributing financially to our lives, at a time when we actually do need it, because I want to travel. I hope that one day I will make some income from my blog. I love walking on beaches, but usually with a friend to talk to – I get enough solitude at home by myself every day! I usually feel happy and fulfilled when I write. One thing I am sure of Lisa is you will sort your feelings out. I think sometimes our brains don’t like to tell us straight out what is happening – they want us to think about stuff and dig the info out for ourselves! Have Fun.
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We all need time to think every so often and its good that you recognize the feeling and know how to deal with it. Hang in there Lisa, 2012 will be a big one for you and your family.
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