As a Mum I am over whelmed sometimes with how much needs to be done in one day. And I sometimes feel like I have lost who I am, what I am doing and who I want to be.
Overloaded With Too Much Stuff Going On
It’s not really that too much stuff is going on with my day-to-day life, its more that too much stuff is mucking my head up! Wondering what happened to living the dream lifestyle? I have met some amazing people in the last few weeks, and they have their S@#T together. They know what they are doing, they know where they are going and they are really living the lifestyle.
One of the couples that we have met, his favorite saying is “I am living the dream” when ever you ask him “How Its going?”…like every time he says it! I love that, and I love how happy he is with his family living the lifestyle. Wondering…….what the heck happened along the way with being a Mum.
Do I put too much pressure on myself to get it all done?? Not sure…maybe I do! I havent got family support (never have had it with my side of the family!) and I have to step up and do everything or it doesn’t get done. BUT I would love to escape for a few hours and make-believe that Yep I am living the Dream.
But What Is The Dream?
I am a Mum, but what other things am I? I am a dreamer, a person who is bursting to travel, a sandwich maker, a dinner chef, a cleaner, a taxi driver, a wife, a sister, a daughter, an aged care nurse, a person who is looking for more….but what really am I?
That I can’t answer. I am so bored with my life right now. So much so that I joined Avon, and then left because there is already someone doing the streets near our bus and I don’t want to travel by car to other areas to put out the books.
I could easily go back to Bunnings for Work. They even asked me to drop my resume into them as they so need more register staff/face painters! Actually if you have a pulse and live near Mackay then you will have at least 3 job offers every day.
But would I be happy working on my feet all day with Bunnings again? Don’t think so.
What about doing a tafe course? I am starting to wonder about that…should I look at doing something/anything during the day?
But then how do I get to tafe every day and still be the dinner chef, the cleaner, the taxi driver, the sandwich maker, the wife etc!!
Tonight I even wrote about what I wonder on facebook…..”Wondering….how long would take my family to notice if I was gone on a holiday? If dinner is made, washing up was done, lunches made for tomorrow and school clothes were ready….wondering!”
Not that I am going anywhere without my family…but I am still wondering……
Where Would I Go?
Maybe its watching the movie “Eat, Pray, Love” (I watched it twice!!) that is leading me to ask questions!…..Could I go to Thailand and no-one noticed for hours! Until they were hungry? Or could I check into a Motel for the weekend and no-one would have a clue where I am?
Or maybe I could check us all into a Cruise, and our boys can go to kids club? Now that is living the dream!
Do You Ever Wonder What Happened To Living?
Cheers
Lisa
New Life On The Road.
Lisa I think most mothers would admit to feeling what you are feeling. When I was a child, my mother, who is a very straight, no-nonsense type of woman who just gets on with it, hid from us one night, just to see how long it would take for us to notice she was gone. (It wasn’t long as the washing up was not done). Mothers ARE taken for granted. I woke my mother up one day when I was about twelve, just because I wanted to ask her something. No doubt she was having a much needed nap. She said how thoughtless I was and did I think she was on this earth just to look after me. I thought to myself – “She is losing the plot – OF COURSE she is here just to look after me!”
Oh Dear!
Have you thought about volunteering at the boys school?
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Hi Jan,
Oh too funny (about waking your Mother up!!) – and I so can see how your Mother hid to see how long it would take to notice she was gone. Smart Mum you have.
I have thought about doing many things, just not sure what I want to. I like the idea of helping out at the boys school – will see if thats allowed.
Cheers
Lisa
Oh dear I think you have been inside my head and drained some of my thoughts out! Yes I can relate to what you are saying…life these days is busy and demanding and like you I have no family support (never have had either) except from my wonderful hubby. I work 20 hrs a week at my local Woolies and don’t particularly like it but see it as a means to an end…getting the kids thru school, paying the mortgages off and getting away for some R & R every now and again. We have long term plans to travel around Australia as soon as the kids finish high school so we just keep working towards that. You might be just going thru a rough patch as everyone does but you will get by. Just keep dreaming and Living the Dream!
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Thanking you Mel for sharing your thoughts. Its not the best situation – having no family support – but thats life! I love the idea of working towards a goal…and your idea of travelling around Australia as soon as you can.
Thanking you for the great support and your kind words.
Cheers
Lisa
Oh I so hear what you are saying. Such a balancing act. Motherhood is all consuming – but yes there is still so much more. Now as my kids are getting older I’m starting to dream again. Feels good 🙂
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that sounds magical – love dreaming 🙂